Depending on your night’s companions, what you have is called (1) an appropriate level of guilt indicative of decency, (2) boredom in disguise, (3)
diagrammable grief, (4) insomnia, (5) latent Catholicism, (6) a less than sunny disposition, (7) nothing that recreational drugs can’t handle, (8) pathological bereavement, (9) too much time on your hands, or (10) vicarious liability.